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2009-04-05T00:29:00.002+08:00

Well I found out why Mum keeps complaining about me, she want's to change my whole appearance... Anyway this is a list of things she wants to change;

Contacts (Only thing I could choose was colour so I said Silver)
Hair (Rebonding and restyling)
Face (Something about pimples I wasn't really listening)
Clothes (Stop wearing all black or black related)
Teeth (whitening)

So many mother in the world... Why I gotta have one that complains when I actually save her money? Haiz... Can imagine the contacts and clothes coming soon, hair I not too sure I will even comply with her. But the face already happening... I don't get my allowance if I don't clean up my face and use the freaking cream every night... The cleaning is fine but the pimple cream smells like shit... Worse than when you're a kid and your parents wouldn't stop nagging u about studying... Next thing you know I get the stupid "you're so old and still single" speech... Oh wait I already got that damn speech... My parents are weird... Who want's to trade?

2009-04-04T22:21:00.003+08:00

Feels kinda weird blogging today. Not too sure where I should start. Well alot of people in class either have or suspected of having HFMD so that kinda worried me seeing how Zhi Hui was one of them, gotta admit that I really didn't notice that when he coughed he never covered his mouth until recently. But haven't had any signs of having it, kinda got a scare yesterday though.
I thought I had an ulcer so went to doctor this morning, he took a look and said that my tooth had chipped and made a cut in my mouth beside my gums so it wasn't an ulcer, even asked if I wanted stitches. But I got charged $20 for his one sentence, MC for today would have been another $5. Mum decided against it. Went to dentist to get tooth fixed, he said couldn't be filled so either he plucked it out or filed it smooth to prevent more injuries. Plucking was $15 and filing was $10, no prizes for guessing which one Mum picked for me again. Hurt like hell for an hour, during that whole hour having to go with Mum to buy groceries and carry them for her, running in the rain to get my Mum's handphone from the car because she forgot it and parked the car 5 blocks away to save on parking. Then had to carry the stuff back in the rain.
Came home and jumped to doing some physical, added another hour of kick-boxing to usual routine. But not too sure why the 200 push-ups and sit-ups were ok then when going into running and cardio training felt like my body was being crushed. Had a bite at the little pizza place down stairs after the run.
Came home again, stared at my Yu-Gi-Oh cards for 2 hours. Lately playing Yu-Gi-Oh has really helped, kept my mind really occupied. Kinda helped that Dad was overseas I guess, kinda miss him now though. It reminds me of growing up lonely, should have been used to it by now but still, the loneliness inside just builds up I guess. My cards kinda give my shelter. Been day-dreaming alot, sometimes catch my self wishing and actually believing that it might come true. Stardust Dragon... Only thing to rival Kyoko...

2009-03-05T22:54:00.003+08:00

Being like I am never changes, mood hasn't changed in awhile though the facade frquently does... Now using Vongola Rings to define mood, not bad considering it keeps things in check so Jason & Matt has no complaints seeing how they know when not too mess with me anymore... Mist Ring hasn't really left the finger in awhile... Rain & Thunder Ring getting dusty... Storm & Cloud Ring have seen fair amount of action... Sun Ring used fairly often... Sky Ring... Used but never known... Life still bites... Joel's trying to introduce the concept of "girls" and referring to them as anything other than "crazy"... Though I agree with Shao Liang, "their all mad with PMS"

2009-02-06T22:49:00.004+08:00

If anyone has taken notice then they would know, truth be told no one really cares about another human being. What one has to understand is that each person lives in their own world, occasionally worlds overlap and ecclipse one another, nothing more, but so much less. Life is not complex, it's completely simple actually. But that simplicity is engulfed by those whose complexity creates comfort for themselves but chaos for others. There's safety in complexity, like layers of armour it sheilds us from that which we fear to face. To have the absolute resolution would be to simply stop caring. Truth be told I just don't give a damn anymore, what's the ****ing point? Nothing will change had I done something else. The world will exactly be the way I left it, nothing would have changed. If anything, I guess everyone would feel a wave of happiness when I leave.

2009-01-17T19:24:00.002+08:00

Haven't blogged in a long time... School bites, been doing work all the time, being a good student.... VERY BORING!!! Anyway my phone's been buggy recently, few keys not working properly. Just realised that I haven't been practising my magic recently, since november I think? Picked up a pack of cards just now and had problems doing sybil, worm and fan was still ok though. I forgot alot of my tricks also... Practising for Chinese New Year Blackjack now, if everything goes right then I shld be able to get everything on my wishlist. Birthday was a drag as usual, parade yesterday was worse. Super pissed.... Flu now so doing training, watching TV and playing DotA. Nothing much to photograph.... Hopefully will blog again ASAP...

2009-01-03T00:53:00.002+08:00

Not quite sure why but recently have been really... Fake, from lack fo a better word. Sorry to everyone but yeah, recently feel very distant from everything. Like the "real" me has taken a trip far far away to sit atop a high mountain to stare aimlessly into the sky while I wonder just about everything. Well acting like I am actually here and that I'm actually happily smiling all the time works for everyone so I have no complaints aside from it getting really really old and boring. So more on first day of school... boring and then tiring. Heard one teacher talking about 2009 Goals, forgot who, but all the goals she mentioned not many people shared, in my opinion of course.

So my goals for this year:

Get 11 points for O Levels
Enjoy the rest of Infocomm CLub
Staff Sergeant in BB
Go Overseas for Snowboarding Trip

Hopefully I'll be able to reach all of my goals but I doubt the last one...

2008-12-27T01:18:00.002+08:00

Merry Christmas!!! Ok so I'm quite late.... Better late than never right? Anyway since my last post so late I'll catch up abit and fill the spaces.

19th December
Had 2E5 BBQ which was a complete and total disaster as in terms of enjoyment and planning... Mostly my fault... I'm not exactly a people person... Something happened there that I'm quite sure everyone knows or will tell you if you asked, prefer if that didn't happen again. Anyway guys left for cheese prata and I sat there alone waiting for parents. So decided to pack and what not, quite interesting actually, packed finish and gave the crabsticks and one bottle of Sprite to these whole group of girls doing a BBQ in the pit next to the one besides the guy's once. Talked with this one girl for quite sometime until parents came, got her phone number on this paper napkin she gave me, but the stupid water kinda smudged the last 3 digits.... So didn't call her, too bad sia... She was...OK in my opinion but nothing much, a waste though

22nd December - 24th December
Had Class Chalet, which was kinda my fault too because everyone didn't enjoy everything and was bored to death.... The money everyone paid me either went into what I needed for meals during the chalet or flowed into the BBQ due to inability meet the quota to pay the budget. In the end it all worked out well..... I hope.... Felt quite happy but was very angry at myself too.... So after counting my expenses and what not I've just found out that my total of $7,204.93 which I earned for the holiday has been completely consumed but the chalet, expenses, Dad's medicine bills and of course giving to mum to pay off the bills and such. Well christmas prsent to all, enjoy!

25th December
Christmas Day!!! Spent the day with all my anime, thinking about things.... Basically it was like a day to be Emo.... My christmas isn't exactly good so yeah don't feel like talking about it.... Don't feel like talking ever again.... Don't ask me about my christmas or holidays or occasions or whatever.... My family not the type to celebrate, just disappoint.... Spent the whole night polishing and preparing uniform for next day's parade.

26th December
Shouting like a mad dog today practicing for BB Day drill, came home tired and Emo somemore. Took a nap in my room with Air-Conditioning. Chatted with Jannica for late afternoon and early evening. Watched TV and then that was it.

So that was my holiday so far, not too sure if I look forward to going back to school or dread it. Guess the grass is always greener on the other side, added a new list of what I want on the side menu, be sure to check it out, Thanks for reasding.

2008-12-17T23:02:00.011+08:00

Ok to be completely honest it's not that I did not want to blog or did not have the time, it's just that I missed a few days on camps and then coming back sick so I wanted to catch up on everything with one post, but it kept on piling on and I've juz kept dragging. So now it's one long post with maybe alot of photos and words..... Once again... Sorry.....

29th December
Went for BB Sharity Gift Box or SGB for short, started at 7am where we met at school then went to BB HQ opposite Great World City. Got out-stationed and could take someone with me so I took Ronald. Looking back it wasn't really all that good an idea but turned out good, jolly and fine. But the $20 they gave us wasn't really enough.... vould barely feed me and Ronald.....

So this is ronald on the left, bringing him along was good because he seemed to attract good luck. We went to "Fairprice Finest" which was at some sort of boring shopping centre. But alot of rich folk go there. Meet that Ang Moh DJ from 95 FM, he was with family apparantly. Ronald Was cute so needless to say my collection tins were really full.... But maybe the photo doesn't make him look too cute.... Oh wel... girls seemed to like him, we sat and talk about the girls walking by and then about whatever we could think of.

Anyway this was my view for like a good 8 hours I guess.... But although during the day many people did not donate anythign except their spare change later in the night many people donated loads upon loads of food which I've got to admit made me happy to do all the hard work. Felt fortunate and happy for the poor doing all this that I did... My officer Kelwin Kwek also came, he donated 120KG worth of rice at once, I wished there were more poeple liked him, or I wish that the world didn't need people like him, because everyone would be happy and fine. No poor or needy people because people are happy to help one another. Anyway while bored I took alot of photos of everything using my phone, though i think the photos are kinda crappy.... My fault.....

Had more photos, but the best ones are the ones I posted.... So hope you all can get my point of view for that day.... I'll tell you more if you asked me

2nd December

Was supposed to go for the second day of SGB on the 30th of December, but I got an asthma attack in the morning so stayed at home watching "Bruce Almighty" that day. Then reported for duty today. Went to some army warehouse full of tanks and weaponry and all the army supplies to do some packing of the food and other donations. Unfortunately security was really tight so they didn't allow any electronic devices thus no photos. Rather hum-drum day if you asked me...

6th - 7th December

Was at Leadership Development Camp 2 or LDC 2 for short, interesting time taking lessons all the time being bored to death but occasionally waking up to play some classroom games. Had some fun playing "Combat Skirmish", that game with the laser guns and what not, played sniper for one round and then like casually walking around and shooting people who don't pay attention.... Managed to survive the camp and camp back to play couple rounds of DotA before sleeping till high noon the next day.... Camp with strict rules so no phones and no photos, but I managed to use my phone to msn during the night.

15th - 17th December (Today)

Attended my BB Fun camp... Can't say it was very good but it wasn't all that bad either, went to "Snow City" and then had "McDonald" for lunch followed by a visit to "Science Centre" and then had "Sakae Sushi" for dinner. Played "Jailbreak" that night and had a blast. Next day had alot of games in school, then no lights out and we just played until we got tired. The second night's "Jailbreak" I managed to catch Jason with sort of a sprained knee.... Ironic.... Kinda had alot of things on my mind so sorry again, but did not take any photos. Throughout the whole time played little games aside from the few so spent alot of time in the D&T room helping the instructor with the model Violins for Dance to use in some competition. Was fun talking to instructor, I talked more to him than anyone else I've ever known... Which might not be that good a thing....

That pretty much sums up the key events of my holiday so far (according to the planner in my phone anyway), going out tomorrow with Khairi and Zhi Hui, but not confirmed, anyway thinking too much again recently. Like that guy I met when I went with Broderick evaluated, I'm too calm for my own good, I think too much and give consideration to too many things, last but not least the obvious fact that I'm emotionally retarded. The movie "Love Guru" had this thing where the letters in the words of certain key things each meant something. Now I find out that one's adopted name has a meaning too.... Mine was "Slevin Kelevra", but "Kelevra" was hebrew for "Bad Dog" so I only had "Slevin".

"Slevin " Stood for;

Self

Loathing

Emotionally

Vandalized

Irritating

Nerd

I can hear all the readers screming to agree so I'll leave you all to your laughing and I think I'll go get some rest or watch some TV.....

2008-11-24T22:26:00.002+08:00

First of all, I'm sorry if anyone stopped reading because I stopped posting for so long. I was a "Night Owl" for the past few nights so I barely slept but had to turn off my laptop because Dad cut off the internet, but spent the rest of the time watching TV, spent some time reading "The Mystery Method" as well. During all that time I've had plenty of time to think as I always do, and just like all the other times I gave great thought to everything, I've arrived at another conclusion resulting in what seems to be a oncoming great depression......

First of all, I do not thank people enough, I just simply under appreciate what I have. Second, I do not apologize enough, just so blind to all the stupid things I do I guess.... Third, I have a face that everyone would hate, I know this because I noticed that while I was walking around everyone would look at me in this sense of dispise and hate which I could almost feel, don't blame them I guess, they're just being human for hating me.

Another thing I thought of was that I do too much analysis and evaluation, now when I see someone I don't see a person anymore, it feels like I'm processing a subject. Not a good thing......

Anyway the last thing that I noticed.... I actually miss something.... Someone actually, my old pit bull terrier Bobby. Had to give him away because some idiot reported me but I really liked him. He helped me through my primary school days, I guess I just miss having a friend....

I wish I had more to say, more to let people understand. But I won't make the same mistake twice.... You do what I do and live my kind of life..... You'll slowly lose fragments of your soul... After long enough.... Your soul will barely exist anymore.... Your only hope.... Is chance, unbiased and fair..... But cruel to those who exploit it......

2008-11-21T22:37:00.002+08:00

Hey all, sorry that I never really made any post in the past few days. Was busy fixing my Dad's CPU most of the time, had to take it all apart right down to removing the components from their circuit boards then cleaning everything before putting in back together again. Went to Sim Lim Square with Dad and bought a replacement for his old broken graphic card. Then when I try to tell him that buying a new CPU is better than buying a graphic card because he's CPU is really old, I get the lecture about money problems again.... Haiz....

Money problems.... Never liked hearing about them.... Well if all goes downhill then maybe I'll start Server Security testing for companies again.... For those who don't really know, I used to do server hacking as in security bypass and all that jazz for companies who wanted their security tested so that they could find any holes in the security network.... Promised I won't hack again.... Hope that I won't have to break that promise.....

Ok on to more important matters.... My head's gonna burst.... The chalet planning doesn't seem to be going too well because Mum wants me to pay her back before the chalet date.... Sian....

Having a really bad flu now, hope I can curb it.... Gonna sweat it all out later, then I'm gonna have like 5 Crunchie's and 5 Boost Bars.... Yes I know they have melanie but I don't really care.... Sprained my back this afternoon too, was watching all my DVDs like "Ironman", "Max Payne" and of course "Heroes" season 3 volume 1.... Man it was cool.... Heck my back hurts now, but I've been playing "Need For Speed: Undercover" on my PSP for the whole afternoon so no big.... Looking to go out sometime soon, feel like I'm dying and rotting at home....

Hopefully can go shooting soon, I miss the feel and sounds of a Glock.... I miss the recoil of that Custom shotgun.... But there are only three guns I love the most..... More like two actually because the handguns are in pairs.... I miss my old sniping rifle "Howling Star" and I miss my handguns "Star-Crossed".... The most beautiful guns I've ever seen.... All using the intergrated "Electronic System", made from titanium and acid etched.

Anyway all things aside recently things have been quite odd for me, music doesn't affect my mood anymore, I no longer have this reasoning thoery in my head as a constant first.... As my good friends know, I've only had 2 dreams so far in my life, the first being completely a nightmare which came true, the second which is a secret for me to know and you to find out.... But this afternoon I had my third dream....

As stupid as this sounds, I dreamed that I was in a dark room,with absolutely no light, pinned to the floor by many many swords pierced right through my body and limbs, blood was everywhere.... Then out of the darkness a bright light opens out like a door and the shadow of person with long hair and a coat steps into the room holding what seemed to be a gun in his/her right hand.... He/Her raises it up and points it at me.... Then the barrel of the the gun glows and i see the the opening shine like a bright light.... He/She pulls the trigger.... And then in one swift "BANG!" it all came too an end....

2008-11-18T21:52:00.003+08:00

Day was boring as usual.... But too bright for my liking.... Wished it rained though.... Spent the day watching TV, Matt came online for once in a long while.... And I mean long, long, time.... Anyway he was telling me about all his "game" this past 6 months.... Then when he read my last post he gave me a good railing for selling the "Twilight" preview tickets, something about it being the ultimate "lure" for the girls he "dates".... Man he reminds me of Bata.... Buy And Throw Away.... I wonder why the girls date him knowing he's a player.... Well anywa on to what I did later, went with my cousin Andy and my Uncle to visit those little bars he invests in.... Quite boring.... Saw Martin bartending again.... Making couple of Martini's the "James Bond" way to go with the new movie theme.... According to him it's a big hit.....

Ok now for the part about the class chalet and upcoming gathering, pretty much confirmed and settled for the chalet but the gathering I'm still not all to sure yet, was just shooting out ideas but no one answered... So yeah.... Anyway details are as follows;

2E5 Chalet
Date: 22nd - 24th December
Place: Downtown East
Check-in Time: 2:30pm< (To Be Finalised Later)
Each Person Expected To Pay(X): $8<> $15

2E5 Gathering {BBQ} [Idea(s) So Far]
Date: 22nd November
Place:East Coast Park
Time: 1pm<
Food: Everyone Bring Your Own
Fire, Utensils & Micellaneous: Good Hearted Samaritan Will Bring OR Whoever Has The Stuff At Home

So that's about it, if anyone's wondering I don't mind paying for the BBQ pit so that's settled. Anyway I have a computer to take apart so if anyone has any suggestions/complaints you can Tag it or you can IM me on MSN and I'll see what I can do, SMS is also an option if you have my number. Thanks for reading!!

2008-11-17T16:52:00.004+08:00

Ok today was slightly more exciting, woke up at 7:15.... Watched TV.... Showered and went to school, then had to "honour" to teach the jokers how to do Drill.... Problem was, I had to teach them advanced Drill when they didn't even know how to do the basic Drill.... Anyway made them do laps around the 3rd floor, followed by like 20 push-ups.... I did with them but for some odd reason they seem less fit than I do.... And that's saying alot.... Anyway ended the day with them getting only slightly better.... My voice ain't so hot anymore though....

Went to West Coast Plaza after the drill, we ran about exploring what was there, alot of stuff we liked though. Like Sakae Sushi and Comics Connection, I went to Sakae Sushi though.... By went I mean I walked into the empty lot with the sign hanging overhead.... HAHA.... Had Subway for lunch with the guys and Shannon.... Kinda funny lunch, we were like joking the whole time and insulting each other.... Funnier when I was ordering my food...

Me: Ok I want the italian bread, thanks
Keith: You can choose your own toppings one
Girl: So what would you like?
Me: Ok I want the chicken, ham, bacon, salami and the beef
Girl: Sir that would be $34.90
Me: What?! Ok erm....
Girl: I suggest you order something from the menu
Me: Ok I want the BLT(Ham sandwich with alot of other meats) and add the bacon, chicken, salami and the beef
Girl: That would be $12:90

You can imagine me thinking "What the heck?! I just ordered the same thing at diffrent price?"..... Felt like ordering something to go but just too lazy.... Walked around later and then got wet in the rain before taking the bus home.... Then on the train something weird happened.... I met Jason.... Had a good chat and then we made our way to his girlfriend's place and collected the tickets from him, for those who don't know, Jason works at GV and then his girlfriend works at Shaw.... So combined with my cousin Tracy who works at Cathay I have access to nearly every theatre, so this time of year is the best because theatres have these special screenings like previews or those with meals and marathons. So all like manager type one get tickets which I'm not sure why they don't use.

Jason says it's because everyone there are like friends and they let him in on a sneak and he can just watch the show if he really wants to that badly. His girlfriend same theory, but Tracy says it's because her boyfriend is also a higher up because he got promoted.... Anyway got alot of the tickets, which now I'm trying to make sense of, because it's not that easy to read.... Sold all my tickets just now or used them to pay favours which I borrow from people....

Just for those who were wondering these were the tickets I had

Sky Crawlers Preview (5 tickets)(GV)
Beast Stalker Preview (5 tickets)(GV)
Twilight Preview (20 tickets)(Shaw)
Quantum Of Solace Free Time Shows (10 tickets) (GV)
City Of Ember Preview (5 tickets) (Cathay)

At first was wondering why Jason gave me so many for "Twilight", but I knew later.... People ate the tickets up.... I made like $50 a ticket.... Anyway moved all these tickets already, hope to get more soon, Tracy said got something good coming up. Have not read anyone's blog in awhile, may go check out everyone's blog later.... Not sure why but no new anime that I like recently.... Ok blog's too long so I'll end it here, hope you had as much fun reading as I did typing it out for you to read, I'll seeya when I seeya....

2008-11-16T23:33:00.002+08:00

Well life's still good.... I think.... Spent the day watching TV.... Went to Downtown East to settle my Nebo membership which they said expired and that needed to be renewed or it would affect the chalet booking.... Turned out that actually my membership doesn't expire for another year and they were the ones who totally screwed up I my paperwork.... Anyway renewed it for another 2 years then plus the 1 year they gave me as an apology I now have 3 years membership....

By the way, anyone who wants to go to Escape Theme Park or Wild Wild Wet during the chalet or anytime for that matter just let me know, Nebo get in for like $7.50 I think.... Looking forward to the chalet, but looking forward more to the upcoming class gathering which is at East Coast Park.... Anyway turning in soon, very tired plus I have Drill tomorrow....

2008-11-15T23:40:00.002+08:00

Well not much to say about today.... Spent the day playing DotA, helped Mum change the water in the fishtank, played PSP and of course while doing all this I was also scanning through the 116 channels on the set-top box. Can't believe Dad bought the thing for $300.... Well at least it beats paying like $500 a year with the stupid starhub one.... I mean this is for life which is cool, but the thing tends to restart itself.... Not too sure why.... Who would even make this kind of thing?

Anyway not too sure why I'm so bored, had so much to do before the holidays started, but for some odd reason I feel so bore and tired nowadays.... Kinda makes me not feel like going for all those camps in December.... Maybe do some training tomorrow, though need go down to Downtown East to renew my Nebo membership tomorrow or they'll terminate my account which means I would have screwed up the 2E5 chalet booking....

Have Drill sessions with what I hope to be the Sec 1s on Monday, Wednesday and Friday.... 2 hours a day.... Well it'll be good for both them and me so yeah....

Feel like this blog's very plain.... Thought about adding photos.... But I don't like being photographed.... At all.... Videos would be good though not everyone has the same taste as I do....

Sleeping soon I think.... Same old way of sleeping, iPod on with heavy rock or whatever my mood is, usually emo songs nowadays, not too sure why.... Seriously.... Then of course my sunglasses on along with the TV..... Not too sure why I sleep like this though.... I find it hard to sleep otherwise....

2008-11-14T15:43:00.004+08:00

Finally tweaked the blog to my liking.... Took really long to do it too.... Though maybe eating and playing DotA alot had something to do with it.... The past 2 days have really been bittersweet.... Chalet settled and I had some fun playing DotA with Zhi Hui, went for "Quantum of Solace" after, had lunch at Sakae Sushi.... Ate till I was too full to move properly....

The bitter part of all this was the fact that I was really hung over not to mention tired beyond all reason. But sweet because well, I had fun, DUH! Came home and then watched TV and played DotA till like 4am - 5am, not too sure when, fell asleep with my head on the keyboard after I took a break to polish my stuff for today.

Today was not all that bad though, but before I begin...... I'd like to apologize to everyone for making your handbooks next year uglier with my photos. Spent today taking photos for next year's handbook because Mr Hong hoodwinked me and Kheng Kiat into doing it. Good news is everyone will get to draw on face in their handbooks next year and that the handbook will come with stickers that say "EXAM!!", "TEST!!", "IMPORTANT!!", etc. Anyway really sian now because I had to look after Dad the whole day, that and maybe the bottle of "Johnnie Walker - Blue Label" had something to do with it.....

Taking time to listen to songs now.... But more interested in reading books for some odd reason.... Too many books and too little time, still haven't finished "The Mystery Method" plus I've bought the whole "House Of Night" series which I have barely touched.... Want to practice my Magic too.... Feel like I'm getting really rusty.... But maybe I'm quitting magic soon.... I hate this holiday.... Bleeding from countless wounds too, this really sucks... Not to mention I have near back-to-back camps for december. At least have 2E5 chalet to look forward to.